Saturday, August 25, 2007
-SIAN..-
yeah well.
life's been.. boring..?
sucky..?
sad..?
happy..?
yeah well. liddat lor.
Chemical formulation of pearly(updated)1%-poison
4%-sanity
5%-mature
30%-happy
30%-random
30%-insane
haha. today's sermon was GREAT indeed.
so interesting ;DDD
well tml's sermon will be different.
sadly tml i will be busy,so cant go for sermon,
so PLS COME DOWN TO BLK 165 GARAGE SALE-run by sherilyn + parents
wahh ;DDD free advertisement eh--soyabean (:
wahh.. second advertisement.. for yi zhang.. ;DDDDD
COME DOWN TO ORCHARD CINELEISURE BASEMENT 1,
ROAST DUCK AND ROAST PORK STORE!!!!
YUMMY DUCK RICE AND CHARSIEW AND SHAO ROU!!!!
;DDDDDDDDDD -PLS SUPPORT ;DDDD -
yeah liddat ;DDDDDD
i miss PEARbean lots :(
mm..later go kachao him in maple ;DDD
yeah. well.
been getting high on chocolate lately...
and i've found out that i go mad on chocolate only when i'm sad or stressed.
haiz. shucks. i hate this, choco will cause me to put on weight T.T
yeah well. soon the troubles will blow over soon. i hope ;DDDDDD
argg... i go maple or sth le.
ciiaos.
miss you and love you dear <333
Sunday, August 19, 2007
-hurt-as always...-
Time flew too quickly,things happened too fast,and before i knew it,i was hurt again.
maybe i've always been hurt...? i dont know either.
although i made a silent vow yesterday to myself,
that i'll never let anyone hurt me again,
everything still hurts,everything seems bent on killing me.
The world seems void,emptied of love,care and concern,
filled with hypocrites,bastards and assholes.
All i can trust are my good frenz and best best frenz and of cuz my dear..
No one can read my true feelings,except jeans.
Without her,without them,without him,and without HIM who is in me,i'll be nothing.
And i'm tired,tired of trying to hide it all,tired of trying to put up a false front of bravery,
i just dont want to be vulnerable to anyone,
so no one can hurt me anymore.
cuz,fact is no one except a few rare people knows who i really am.
but just be happy with who thou think i am,cuz that will be the best for all.
and if anyone is willing to be my my punching bag,that'll be more than perfect,
cuz i realized that venting anger at plushies and text are not exactly working anymore.
Basketball is one good way to vent out,but hmms may hurt ppl on the way,
may also get hurt in the way,but heck,since when didnt i get injured,
somehow emotional pain blinds all physical pain.
haiz..
3 messages to whoever you are...
(fcuk you if u r nt the person and still try to decode it)
<1>
7829 42779 65..?
<2>
416 76779 22688 8428 329. 4 26853618 2668765 69 33354647,43 4 423 4878 968 46 269 929,416 76779.... :(
<3>
i'm sorry for all i did that hurt you...
haiz.. some things, i never know and i'd never understand,i guess...
and i'm sick of crying,tired of trying,though i'm smiling,inside i'm dying..
ahhh. enough of emo-ing.. lets elmo~~ woohoo. gotta mugg for geography soon. =(
good luck people! ^_^
++ I LOVE YOU DEAR (:
+++ Cya tmls (:
Thursday, August 16, 2007
define:screwed up
ironically,yes,life is kinda screwed up lately,
and to those asses who are causing it,
revenge will be sweet. wahaha.
well...maybe it'll be irony for u,
who knows..?
and sadly,i've become more of a sadist lately.
so there.
sadly, made a startling discovery that i'm in (a-to-the-power-of-two)'s cg,
which left me in a state of shock,
and which caused the rest of the day to go on in an disconcerting manner.
sadly,cuz that day started out as a nice day.
and ironically,my sunday was spent at the pesta sukan carnival,
which was literally waste of time,cuz all we had to do play 2 matches,
lose them and go home.
boriing...~~ should have followed my intuition and ponned that in the first place.
Thn bused down to toa payoh and ate kfc.
thn went to rowena's hse--played pool n bball.
left at 5 plus, and train-ed home to start my mugging for the upcoming exams.
At midnight +++ which marked the start of the 7th lunar mth,aka the hungry ghost festival,
had an unwelcome visit from a supernatural being,
and that caused me unrest and an unpleasant sleep for the rest of the night.
yeah well,and the past few days have been boring,
seriously and i end up going mad over chocolate due to exam stress.
all i know is i screwed up most of the papers although i tried my best already.
maths was never more perfect until today.
the paper.simply putting it,is average in difficulty for me,for once,at least.
thanks to stm, i forgot to get my book back from kyoya to study for the history paper,
and thus am waiting for her to send it to my house,
thanks kyoya!!!!!!!!! (:
seriously tired.
i still gotta do my newspaper report cuz it was rejected by mr khairulamirin.
urg,
madly busyyyy... =_=
bball mad ~~
and i love you PEARbean (:
ciiaos.
-TARbean (:
Friday, August 10, 2007
Unfaithful
Story of my life,
Searching for the right,
But it keeps avoiding me.
Sorrow in my soul,
Because it seems like one,
Really loves my company.
He's more than a man,
And this is more than love,
The reason that the sky is blue.
The clouds are rolling in,
Because I'm gone again,
And to him I just can't be true.
And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful,
And it kills him inside,
To know that I am happy,
With some other guy.
I can see him dying.
I don't wanna do this anymore,
I don't wanna be the reason why,
Everytime I walk out the door,
I see him die a little more inside.
I don't wanna hurt him anymore,
I don't wanna take away his life.
I don't wanna be...
A murderer.
I feel it in the air,
As I'm doing my hair,
Preparing for another date.
A kiss upon my cheek,
As he reluctantly,
Asks if I'm gonna be out late.
I say I won't be long,
Just hanging with the girls,
A lie I didn't have to tell.
Because we both know,
Where I'm about to go,
And we know it very well.
'Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful,
And it kills him inside,
To know that I am happy,
With some other guy.
I can see him dying.
I don't wanna do this anymore,
I don't wanna be the reason why,
Everytime I walk out the door,
I see him die a little more inside.
I don't wanna hurt him anymore,
I don't wanna take away his life.
I don't wanna be...
A murderer.
Our love,
His trust,
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head,
Get it over with.
I don't wanna do this,
Anymore, ooooooh, anymore.
I don't wanna do this anymore,
I don't wanna be the reason why,
And everytime I walk out the door,
I see him die a little more inside.
I don't wanna hurt him anymore,
I don't wanna take away his life.
I don't wanna be...
A murderer.
Oooh.
A murderer.
No, no, no.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
- (: bballing later ^__^-
-screwup up= me-
duh-oh.
the past few days were kinda crap.
esp national day celebration.
bet 101% tht it fcuking sucked thanks to that sng sh.(added 1% for dissatisfaction)
couldnt get high enough,
to the extend that i ended up kinda low. =.=
T___T Fcuking female dog lah.
yeah..
open sunday was kinda ok and stuff.
organized by LOL. hurhurhur,
renfred=our model ^_^
and we got 1st runner up!!!
woohoo! prize=t-shirt designed by the LOL
lolz.
thn went library and went home.
-happy one month dear (: -
monday...
sianz..?
was blur blur during umpiring due to lack of sleep and stuff. =.=
sianz lor. =.=
tuesday...
swimming. but my fate was clear
and i couldnt swim on that day,
sat at the poolside dying of boredom. =_= save me.
at last that torturing hour was over.
thn went to eat at the republic foodcourt before going home.
ponned piano. lolz.
wednesday..
yah lah!!! that stupid ndp!!!!!
thn went to tav's pri sch,
thn ate macs.
bleah.. i'll be off macs for quite awhile. =_=
thn went cwp.
slackedd around.
met some 2/9 ppl,wei loke and kaixian.
they wanted to play bi xian,in another words,ouijia.
=_= thn went library,thn went home.
ytd..
ate japanese buffet at _____________(at bukit timah turf club--i forgot restaurant name)
thn shopped at jurong point.
bought shoes,wallet and gatsby moving rubber. >_<
thn watched parade at home.
today i guess i'll be slacking at home,till i rot and stuff.
and hopefully can bball at 5 ^_^
and yeah..
tml bballing at 10am at fushan. so cya there if you're goin! ^_^
so till thn..
ciiaos ^_^
ilu <3
Saturday, August 04, 2007
--<3sss-
woohoo!!!
thanks dear for helping wif my tag board!
hehe (:
yeah...
cont my post...
monday...
hmmmsss.. i dont rmb anything,as a matter of fact.
my memory finally failed me.
tuesday...
swimming!!!
walked there with tavin,
played water captain ball =.=
after that... tired like siaos.
ate instant noodles at 7-11
thn train-ed home.
piano and stuff =.=
yeah liddat lors (:
wednesday....
waited for teevee.
thn went to cwp.
lolx (:
thn he sent me home.
thursday,
hmmms...
i kinda screwed up that day.
oujia board.
after watching.
omfg, i felt sick.
called ade.
was damn f***ing scared,
yeah..
thanks to a few ppl(dunno shld mention mah),i felt better... (:
colin is kinda funny =.=
lols.
yeah...
somehow...i think i may have let auntie june down.
she said i should never oujia and stuff,
but seriously i didnt know that was oujia =(
haiz.. screw.
did project at sherilyn hse till 10pm.
friday
hl and stuff.
kinda boring.
hmt till 3.
thn went library,
sianz lahhs.
today,
sick until sianz,
mum say cant go ct or anything today,
bt tml going open sunday,
(: happy.
goin 9am service thn bball-ing with luke,jean,ced and...????
yeah liddat lor.
and i also realised sadly,that one of my friends in my midst is a evil person.
what she did,i may not have ever known,if no one ever told me.
2 things i'll never forgive her for:
<1> sowing discord between me and my friends by backstabbing
<2>threatening to resort to witchcraft
i dont care if she wishes to blame me for anymore,
cuz that kind of person,
angry with her also waste my energy only.
so heck.
1 more hour to 05082007 (:
hehehe (:
love and miss you dear!
cya tml (:
th week-
lols.
just saw sth funny that giraffe made.
jeans,i think you're gonna kill him him you see this.
http://www.paloozahead.com/1412759-c49a
hurhur. (:
hmms..
this week has been kinda messy and stuff,
slightly screwed up due to some stuffs.
hmm..
i will cont my post shortly.
go troubleshoot some problems.. =.=
